give me back my time

i always think about the time i spend with people. whether that be online or irl

i just get really lonley

"some nights can be so fucking lonley"

and i just dont know why i care so much. the people i always love the most always end up leaving my life sooner or later. its an endless cycle of heartbreak and demise. i just feel kind of hollow now. like nothing really envokes a happy reaction out of me anymore. like i dont laugh when i said i do and i dont smile as much i used to with people i love. 

why do i try at all?

and it just really makes me feel weird

happiness is the one thing i depend on to keep me going. its why im so attached to my friends. 

idk if its attachment issues or what but i feel like i love my friends so much because i know they like me for me and not because im their kid