Hanging On

Hey guys, how yall doing? I've been doing well. 

My mom complains to me about my dad not giving her enough money, and how other family members and friends keep telling her to rest and take it easy, she tells me that if she did then none of what I've ever experienced would've happened and sitting listening, the only thing i could think was that "I'm a failure". I realised I've failed my mom, by her complaing about all that makes me realise that I'm not a good son, i can't even help my mom, and if i can't do that then what am I? 

I've realised that im probably no ones best friend anymore. While all my other friends have someone they can rely on, I've never considered anyone my best friend, nor has anyone done with me i think. I imagine that I'm there to fill the gaps of what's meant to be and i can't really understand what anything means anymore. 

I guess the point of this entry was to find someone to talk to. My sisters probably hate me, my closest cousins too, and my friends probably can't give 2 shits on what i say. 

There was a point in life where i stopped trying. 2 actually, and now maybe I should've just stopped finding a reason in the first place. 

Thanks for reading all that, it's nice to spill everything out. I don't have anyone to talk to, so reach out if you'd like. 

Sincerely, 

Wee.