Hatred

For some odd reason, I've been more reluctant to be around my friends. I don't know why, but being around them feels so draining. Any slight inconvenience that happens because of them makes me so irrationally mad and makes me hate them. I've also been more withdrawn from them. This could just be because I'm growing up and getting older so I'm naturally not going to stay friends with people from middle school since I'm going into high school, but I don't like this feeling. These are the only friends I've ever had and I don't want to lose my only safe space. They're half of the reason why I'm still alive. I don't want to lose them.