He thinks of himself as some martyr lol

He's not a fucking saint because he's as bad as I am. That mentality is going to put me back in that damn ward. I hope he knows how bad that sounds, he was the cause afterall. For trying to set me back... look where I ended up lol.

I have a strong sense of justice, all I'm seeing is how he's giving up on this life when we still have unfinished business. If he feels so fucking mindless all the time then he should just let me do this for him. Mostly for me, he can't take this away. He can't ever fathom that this will make me happy because of his super elite moral compass. But he hasn't considered that maybe he'll feel it too, feel something for once, but he's "daaaw nothing makes me happy nothing entertains me dawwwww whats the point of it all dawwwwww nothing can fix me." More whining than doing, this fucking guy is the incompetant one. I know what to do but he won't let me. What is it that he actually wants???????? Yeah yeah yeah fucking coward go hang yourself and watch them laugh at you dangling like a fucking piñata. See, no one will laugh if no one is there. If they're removed, right?

I'm trying to convince this suicidal Rimbaud wannabe to stay, believe me, to keep him alive. He's so fucking ungrateful, one of these days that'll be the one driving me to end my shit. Can't even do anything around him.