HOLY FUCK PART 2

i think i like zeke the same way i'd like a woman. i threw up upon realizing that. if any of the others knew they'd laugh in my face and i can't even blame them. we talked again and the whole time my heart was pounding and i just felt horrible. they all joked and said i loved him way back when i used to get mad at him for spending so much time with me and now all i want is more time with him. and maybe it's dumb and maybe i'm imagining things. i like women. i liked women i think. i never had a girlfriend but that was also because i didn't;t speak to anyone to begin with and god i just want zeke to be there more often again i literally think about him so much and it makes me feel so gross and exhausted. i don't think i'll ever be able to tell him. but maybe, knowing him, he'll find out.