Home

I'm always at home lately, I'm scared to go to school, I'm scared to be anywhere without my family or someone I'm comfortable with. I never had this fear before these recent weeks. I feel sad and I feel guilty for staying home, the reasonable response since I should be at school.

I don't feel comfortable at school, but then there's also me not wanting to do homeschool as I might want to go back to my current school. I guess I'd say I feel stuck, stuck in the grave I've dug for myself.

Maybe I'm like this because I have no one at school, maybe I'm like this because the people who tricked me time and time again into their friendship finally threw me out.

I'm trying to find escapism in my games, my tv shows, my movies and books, but it's not okay. The real world is where I'm meant to be, but the real world isn't where my home is.