hope tomorrow will be better.

today kinda fucking sucked, last night when we came home on of the neighborhood cats was sitting weird in the front yard and my mother gets really upset at dead animals and her reaction makes me upset cause i don't want to be around her if she's upset the vibes are off and bad, so I didn't tell her that was a dead rabbit and instead said it was a bug and today she called me out that lying and manipulating th situation so that I don't have to deal with someone else's reaction was my immediate response. 

so uh cried a bit in the bathroom and. Got over it locked in, my brother who I'm assuming doesn't cry a lot? was like breaking down with the bedroom door open?? and talked about his feelings with my mother (??) 

anyway I said I was trick or treating at the mall... I got the fucking date wrong it was yesterday, now I look fucking stupid in a restaurant. 

but uh tomorrow's my birthday.. 

I'm gonna shower later I'm done with this shit.