horror

me and my sister are 9 years apart and with how our childhood was she felt like one of the only safe people I had and she loves horror so me being up her ass I seen a lot I probably shouldn't have but too bad and I'm in recovery for anorexia I'm doing really well but something no one talks about is the paranoia it is really bad and had me hallucinating I'm in a place where I feel like I can start watching stuff like that again I have seen terrifier 1 and 2  and I recently moved to a new state and now I'm trying to make friends and eventually go to a haunted house I have never been and my boyfriend doesn't like gory stuff or fair rides he's gone on them for me but it sucks because I know he hates it and ends up throwing up so I'm trying to incorporate the things I haven't been able to do because of me stuff idk and I can't do these things with my sister because she is 3 hours away