How do all of you make it?

I've been on this site for a long(not so long) time now, and b4 here I was on spacehey and I can't figure how all of you have so much to say, I see profiles of some people talking about maybe their childhood or telling som history about their life, but for me its superhard to think about something to say or tell, idk if its becase I think nobody cares but even if it wasnt like that ,I cant think of something to talk about, maybe I'm not living my life enough?, Maybe I should go out to touch some grass? but with this weather and no money its kinda hard, I feel so lost, alone and empty, and I wish I could change it, maybe I can but I can't see the solution, I dont know what to do, I wanna meet new people but yet again I feel that people is always on their phones and I feel like a creep or weirdo if I come up to someone to talk about whatever, and again, I could not find anything to talk about, would this count as trauma dumping? rn idc its my profile u can suck me, have you ever felt that way? I feel like online people is the only people I cant talk with without being worried that much, but at the same time I feel like online people feel dispossable in some way?, I just don't know, I wish a lot of things, yet I don't make it happen, let me now what you think.