How do I deal with hating everyone

I’m no longer entertained by anyone. All of you are severely annoying to me. I think I’m really stressed right now due to my leg and not being able to trust my own brain, like what my last blog talks about… but I’ve been lashing out at people and I know that isn’t right. I’ve been pretty passive aggressive to my grandmother recently and, while I don’t like being like that, she simply would not stop talking to me. I’m just irritated. I’m getting way too annoyed over the tiniest things. I’m already a very annoyed person without love to soften the blows of irritation, and so now that I’m actually stressed everyone is just pissing me the fuck off. I despise being neurodivergent. I’m ableist towards myself. Just be fucking normal. I annoy myself for being annoyed and then I curse my family for birthing me this way. 

I’m hanging out with my friend tomorrow so I really hope I get a little more calm because I’m just angry as FUCK. I don’t have social anxiety I have social IRRITATION. I’m an anxious person with ANGER ISSUES. I’m not scared of you all I’m just disgusted by you all. I feel like sometimes the social part of my brain gets switched off and then I snap at everyone even though I was fine 2 seconds ago. I think chronic stress and trauma ever since birth has made my fuse very short and constantly half-lit. Imagine viktor from arcane when he was being sassy to everyone but that’s 8/10ths of the interactions that he has with everyone. That’s how I look. I need medication or something I’m actually such a bitch I feel like a wolf with a leash on and no one has made any attempt at domesticating me but they get surprised when I bite them 

I feel like a caged tiger…grrr.. and you do NOT !!  CAGE A TIGER!!!!! /ref

edit: I’m not trying to make hating people and being generally awful my personality this is genuinely how I feel all the time