How im feeling since 6 years ago

I'm so tired of getting blamed for every single thing, every small things you always make it seem bigger as if I did something that would put me behind bars.All because I refused to let you connect to my data you suddenly made a threat of hurting me, solely because I refuse what kinda father is that? If only I could count how may times you made a threat of killing/hurting me. Dont even get me started on how you treat the dog all you do is hurt them because they qct like a  fuckign animal which they are, what do you even expect after getting a Malinois for them to act like a fuckign shih Tzu all soft and such your such a fuckign piece of shit I wish you were never my father your w fuckign piece of shit and so are you mom for letting a bastard like that belittle you and your fuckign daughter both of you are a piece of shit. Can't even spend time with your own kid without telling me to go away ik  of even allowed to eat dinner at the dinner table anymore because you can't stand looking at m, your own kid the one who you promised 15 years ago to love and protect, but where did all of that go? To fuckign nowhere