how is school already THIS DRAINING

tw- suicide

dont wanna drop what grade i'm in or anything but ever since the 6th grade school has been increasingly dreadful and just boring. No recess, no time to relax. You have to wake up at 6, sometimes even 5 am, and stay there for hours. You're drained and want to take a break? You can't!! you have homework to do!! i mean, no wonder people drop out because on top of all of that, you have a 90% chance of being bullied. I had a really hard time with my mental health last year and i feel like it's going to be worse this school year. I've attempted 7 times, i don't really want to add onto that. It's suffocating, and i can't do anything about it. It only gets worse from here guys!!