Okkk, soo I've been gone from school for like an entire year due to health reasons, and now I'm going back to school in August, I wouldn't say I'm scared to go back, but I am a little worried about trying to make new friends, since I dropped my old friends. Being with them made me feel insecure and unsure of myself, almost like a was just a shell of person copying what they did, and what they liked, rather than doing what I wanted, and wear what I wanted. They were the type of "friends" to talk about you behind your back, and act like they like you in front of your face. And its not like I'm scared of making new friends of anything, what I'm worried about is what if I try to make new friends and meet new people and it doesn't work out? How do I cope with being alone? Cause to be honest I've been in one to many friend groups where I got left out for whatever lame reason, and now I just kinda don't want to actively look for friends anymore. Even though I've had a couple of fall outs with people or just grew apart, I've never really been alone. I've always been an extraverted person, so learning that its okay to be by yourself, and that you don't need a lot of friends to prove you're worth, will be completely new. idk if I'm over thinking it, or making things more complicated than what it really needs to be. The only thing I know is that I'm over the whole friend group thing, and I just wanna know if I'm crazy for thinking that 😔
(also sorry if none of this makes sense)
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I understand what you mean about the friend groups girly. Me myself ive never really experienced it like that. But back when i was in elementary school i had some fake friends who did the same thing as yours. But ive learned over the years all you need is 2 or 3 good girlfriends.
And don't be afraid to be alone. Us as humans natural want to navigate towards bigger groups, because it makes us feel included. When were alone we feel bored or left out. Thais why i want to encourage you to do things by yourself. to figure out what you love and what you like to do with yourself. So when things like that does happen, you don't need to jump to friend group to friend group to rely on to have fun.
ANd going back to school after not being there for a whole year will feel different and uncomfortable. But i know you've got this. You've overcame your held problems, so this is a piece of cake girly ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡. And please please do not think you are overthinking yourself. that will teach your brain to work against yourself and not with yourself. as an over-thinker myself i know.
Always trust that gut of yours girl, even if things might seem worthless. You've got this (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.ﾟ