hypersexuality (IM TRYING TO SPREAD AWARNESS AND RANT)

hai so this is  gonna be kinda serious as its abt me being hypersexual so trigger warning abt rape, incest, sexual things, and maybe sa (I also will be saying all the real words for things so porn wont be corn I'm just gonna put porn) so if any of these things seem troubling please click off for your safety and mine ok into the rant or wtv I'm abt to do 

ok first what is hypersexuality some people think that its abt gooning which isnt true its abt have sexual thoughts and/or urges hypersexuality can be caused by people who have been sa'd, exposed to porn at a young age,  and many other things being hypersexual isn't a good thing and it makes you think and do things that you cant control

I am hypersexual so somethings that I do or think abt is wanting to get raped and sa'd yes I know both of these things are horrible and multiple people go through it and how much it can damage your life but I think abt these 2 things alot and it feels so disgusting and like a slap in the face to survivors when I dont even mean to because the thoughts just pop up  and wont go away something else I think abt is incest which I hate because why am I thinking about fucking my cousin or brother it's just the worst feeling ever and I do touch myself a lot and I've been doing it since 6 and have been watching porn since 8 and I just haven't been able to stop and my biggest worry is my gf because I ask her to help me get off with voice audios and things like that and I ALWAYS tell her if she feels uncomfortable and doesn't want to do something she can tell me and we wont do it and she has never said it and she says that she is happy to help me get off and she doesn't touch herself but I'm scared that she finds me gross or just a horny kid and I don't want her to ever be like me and I think of her in such nasty ways that I don't want to think abt

the biggest thing I hate is when people say hypersexuality is good and its not that bad and when they say "I'm hypersexual just because I goon alot" in a happy voice like its something to be proud of like wtf this isn't happy and your not hypersexual your just too slow to do your research 

but that's all I have to say for now I also have a question do y'all think hypersexual should have a flag? okkkk my nuggets I'm out