i am hiding from you at the QFC

whats it called when youre on thin ice forever with a friend so you cant ever express anything negative around them and cant express that anything they might do can frustrate you or .. like you cant ever have a problem with something that theyve done even though they get to do that all the time with you, and its just driving u fucking crazy, i feel so fucking pissed off with him but guess what i cant say anything, but my lack of response is probably gonna be treated like ohh im avoidant and i suck so i CANT FUCKING WIN ANYWAYS.... omg oh my god and you know where the feeling of anger goes????????? i dont even know but i dont think it just evaporates into thin air and its probably ruining me, and this happens so much im fucking scared to be honest, this isnt my first time bottling up my emotions but this time its like. different it feels different, but hes pissing me off so much i feel disgusting about it, to quote will toledo "i am not allowed to have feelings, feelings would complicate this"