I am unfunctional and I hate it

I can't function normally I'm exhausted by doing nothing and I have no energy to do anything my mom says she gets annoyed just by looking at me and I don't blame her I'm sad pathetic and useless but I wish I had a person who would not hate me not yell at me actually listen to me and not pretend someone who could raise and that would be a mom my mom doesn't care about me so much I feel l8e I don't have a mom or dad either I'm disgusting I don't even deserve anything like my mom is right I do ruin everyone's day, it is just so painful and annoying to look at me so sad and useless