I cant dude

idk what the fuck is wrong with me like almost every person I hang out around seems like they'd rather die than have me there like I've never felt so fucking annoying in my life especially my friends who are juniors like yeah I get it they're juniors and I'm a freshman it might be a little weird but I think I barely talk to them I try not to talk to them too much now because I js feel like a mosquito around them espesially since I get pushed out of their conversations sometimes idk dude I'm tryna be a better friend by giving them as much space as they want (even my freinds in my grade but I cant help but to feel lonely they really aren't bad people they're all amazing but I js feel like I'm the problem especially since I got screamed to shut the fuck up