I do NOT want to go back to school later in August:(

Im genuinely so nervous about going into the 10th grade. Like, its my last year in ungdomsskolen (i think its secondary school in english) but im soo so scared for it. My BEST FRIEND is switching to a private school, i have no friends AT ALL in my WHOLE GRADE except for 2 girls in my class i occasionally talk to and then another girl i just smile to or say hi in the hallways (shes rlly nice but i cant be friends with her because her friends are meh and tbf most people already dislike me becasue im alternative and MOST HER FRIENDS DO!) PLUS-! I have a freaking classtrip to Poland,, and yes its going to be fun and all but as i said.. i have NO FRIENDS IN MY GRADE AND ESP NOT MY CLASS. I used to have friends but when my bsf in my class stopped talking to me i lost EVERYONE FULLY. (she stopped talking 2 me because i started wearing eyeliner...? That was the last straw i guess? damn..) anyways, those other ppl i fully fell out with after her had already started ignroing me in December because i was depressed.. not fun. Now i dont hang out with anyone in my class or grade at all! And its not that bad until i realize.. not only am i going to be friendless on a schooltrip my mum forced me to go to, I HAVE THE WORST TEACHERS FOR THIS YEAR ON TOP OF ALL THAT! I hate it. Synne and May... ew. ew ew ew ew. I hate them. I was having an anxiety attack during a cooking twst once cus May is my cooking class thingy teacher and she said in a rude tone: "Okay..? Thats not my problem what do you want me to do about it? Go finish the test" gosh.. she also yelled so badly at my ex bsf once just cus my ex bsf cooked rice wrong. Insane! She apologized after my ex bsfs mom contacted the school tho (yes it was that bad i witnessed it im not even being a drama queen rn) Fyi im listening to Jimmy Eat World rn cus free will + his songs are holy guacamole peak:O! Anywaysssss- school. So tghat other Synne teacher (and fyi May and Synne will be my main teachers so contact teachers).. None of them care for or undersatdn mental issues and i have ALOT of them, so im fucked guys! Yay..? Whatever. My dad says if my schoolyear is too bad he can move me away to the other side of the country since hes trying to find a house there for when i starts the 11th grade cus then i`ll have NO FRIENDS AT ALL IN SCHOOL (all my friends are 1-2 yrs younger and 11th grade is in vgs and vga iant in the same school... AAAAA. Its basically highschool in english i THINK) but i cant tell anyone or my mom cus she cant know before me and him have decided im moving or else she`ll be pissed and sad and the whole pacl. I cant handle all that my relationship with my mum is FAR too complicated for that even if i love her i just kinda resent her yk? Whatever.. i hope i can move tho, cus im most nervous for vgs cus then i`ll be fully alone at school and i go crazy when im alone.. seriously! insane! not fun not fun at all.. anyways ima go to sleep now! Lets hope evrything goes well for me this year even if im sure it wnt cus 5 days in poland with girls who hate me.. and boys.. fun! Amazing! Great! (NOT!) Fyi i have to share rooms with 5-6 girls.. for 5 days. Gonna cry its gonna be a NIGHTMARE D: