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i don't think I'll do anything significant with my life

there's people who make things that blow up and that's how they're remembered.  there's people who have never posted anything online and are still known in their communities.  if i die,  will anyone but my family know me?

i want to be a famous artist or musician or something. everytime i feel like I've put out my best work, it gets no views. somtimes i feel like im wasting my time

even educationally i feel like im subpar. my friends are way better than me at math, chemistry, English, etc. everybody just knows things, and i feel like i should know things as well. i really hate math, there are so many stupid rules, every question feels like a trick thats like "theres something obvious that solves me instantly but you dont know it off the top of your head but by the time you figure it out someone would have answered it already."

starting to hate school. and the people in it, but whatever

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Can't offer much, but I'll look at your work if I know where to find it, I'll check your account on here first. But still, just the fact that you have friends and family means you'll be remembered, and now, a few people on the internet that see your posts. You'll grow, and more people will remember you, how many I can't say- but how successful you are now doesn't define how it'll be in the future, your math teacher will NOT remember your friends for being good at math, it's their job to teach so many kids, one won't stand out so much. Don't let your friends' sills undermine yours, you're amazing. Off to go check for your work now

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I know it doesn't feel like it, but you will be remembered. In stories told by your friends to their kids, by family members to their kids, by friends to their other friends, by family members to their friends. You'll be remembered, through stories, and those stories have lessons, a good laugh, a good story in general. 

You may not be remembered for being a wonderful mathematician, or scientist, or artist. You may not be remembered for doing something academically profound. But sometimes, those things are forgotten in time too. Sometimes, those things are seen as meaningless in a few years or decades. As new things come out the old things go away and people forget unless they study the field. 

Be remembered for being a good friend, for being a good sibling, for being a good child to your parents. Be remembered for that embarrassing thing you did that one time while you all hung out and now your friends all talk about because in hindsight it was super funny. Be remembered for talking to your friend late at night when they were having a hard time and needed a shoulder to cry on. Be remembered for helping strangers and making them smile because you took time out of your day to do so. 

You may not be remembered for changing the world, but sometimes it means more to change the world of those around you. Sometimes, it's worth more to make an impact on those around you and be remembered through those stories. 

I like to talk about this story, and I like to talk about the greatest man I ever got to know. My uncle dennis was not the smartest man academically. He never went to college, he never even properly graduated high school. He was in and out of prison for most of his life for petty crime. However, that man changed my life. He looked after me while I was recovering from an eating disorder, he checked in on me every day when I got out of the mental hospital, he ensured I was safe, he ensured I was happy. He told me stories I still remember and love to tell my friends that have now become inside jokes. He was the kindness, funniest, wittiest, wisest man I ever got to know. When he died, his memory did not die, because I still go on to tell anyone who will listen about him. 

Sometimes, it's better to be remembered like Uncle Dennis than be another Jeff Bezos or Mark Zuckerberg. Because there's one thing I can say for certain about my Uncle Dennis that I can't say about Zuckerberg or Bezos: he loved everyone around him, he was a great man, and he was a one of a kind human being. 

In short, be remembered for being an incredible human being, don't put so much pressure on yourself to be world changing. Because sometimes, it is enough to be a one of a kind human being and make an impact on those around you.