i dont wanna play anymore

as a Leo, i have to get attention from my friends, because i'll give them the same. it has to maintain the same energy except when they feel down. if they feel down, my attention is theirs. it has to be two sided. if it starts being one sided, hunny... i'm sorry but you just let me down and i won't hold you either.


it's okay to find other friends, it really is. but if you, as soon as you meet them, forget about me, we aren't playing anymore. 
no matter how many friends i have i always find time to keep the same attention to all of them as long as they keep the same attention to me.

i'm sick of people treating me like their second option. i was never a second option, or a 'just in case they leave me i have somebody' option. 

i don't play about this ! 
yet people keep disappointing.

i am not jealous, i just want things to be equal, and i'm strict about it.

maybe i seem like a nightmare friend to have, or 'high maintenance' but it's who i am.