i feel like im living in vampire the mascarade but awkward teenage girl who doesnt fit(vent?)

Ill try and do a better introducement someday but i rlly had to tell someone this shit 

and im sorry if there is any grammar mistake, english is not my first language and i dont feel like searching for translators rn

My parents made me do a birthday party even tho i cant even look ppl in their eyes(idk why they are forcing me to do it, i rlly dont get why), and im trapped in this hill cause the party is tomorrow and i cant even think about it without crying, i feel like im playing vampire the mascarade but without the funny part that is THERE IS OTHER VAMPIRES WITH YOU, in real life im the only one who doesnt fit in any shit it doesnt matter how i try, i feel like i dont belong anywhere and i rlly dont know what im doing tomorrow, ill probably take a sertraline pill cause it makes me feel like a zoombie with no feelings at all but still im SO SCARED OF TOMORROW