I feel prettier

I will not lie.

I had a glow up. Now while I don’t exactly like to use this term, it does help explain why I feel so great lately.

And it’s not just physically. My mental state has gotten so much better. I’m a very introspective person, which can lead to constant overthinking and grating anxiety.

But now.. I feel like I can live. I can breathe. I can actually be alive without rushing into something else.

Of course it’s a habit, and I do still have sweaty hands before I walk to the cashier. I still think about interactions long after they passed. I still have panic attacks.

But they’re not as frequent. I’ve only had two this year, which says something! I can be in loud spaces without freaking out.

I also had terrible self esteem before. 

But now, as I mature, I am finally starting to recognize my beauty. Not to be weird about it or sound selfish, but when I look in the mirror, I can actually see that I am beautiful.

I’ve learned how to do makeup. Not to hide my features.. but enhance them. And I’ve never felt more pretty. More comfortable. More proud of myself for getting this far.

I’ve even learned how to take care of my curls. They’re so long now!

I feel different. And I feel like this will be a good year. For whoever is reading this, I really do hope that you have a good year too! And remember you are beautiful inside and out :)

(Hopefully this wasn’t TMI, I’m not too big on putting myself out there..)