I got over my crush!!

I like or liked this guy who I'm calling Peter, but right now I'm a little confused on what to think. The whole time I've like him, him and my best friend who I'll call Ava has been really close. It has always pissed me off, but I've always rubbed it of since I know Ava likes to jokingly flirt with everybody and she just wants friends, but its been getting to a point where he actually looks like he likes her. Every time I see them they're laughing in a flirty way together which I think is weird, because Ava is dating Peters best friend Ben. I have mentioned it before, but Ava and Ben are in a rough patch kind of. So she is closer to Peter than her own boyfriend right know. This is because Ben doesn't want to talk to her. I think he avoids her because of how close she is with Peter, but I know he won't say that to her, because he hates making a big deal out of things. 

Anyways we were all hanging out together and watching a movie. I was sitting with Peter, Peter sitting with Ava and ben next to her. The whole time we were hanging out I could see how interested Peter were in Ava and then I realised I weren't jealous because they were flirting, I was jealous because I felt excluded. None of them seemed to actually want to be with me and I didn't actually wanna be with them. I just wanted to be included. I wanted them to include me in their conversations, Ben can be as emo as he wants, but that doesn't mean Ava should only talk to Peter. I was there too. 

After that day I stopped liking Peter(well I think). It just came to me. Before I thought he was cute and funny. Now I do think the same, but not in the same way. I dont get exited when I'm going to hang with him. Actually the opposite happens, I want to go home because I know those two are just going to talk to each other. One thing that also helped is that he knew I liked him. I dont know for how long, but just recently ava told me that, then we hung out and I lost feelings for him. I realised it won't happen and I was actually very glad. because then I can move on from the whole friend group. I do miss having a crush tho. because that was actually fun, just not crushing on him. I think that is making me confused and I might have a little feelings for him left, but I think that will pass. I do hope so.