i h8 my family

before anybody gets on my ass, i have reasons. 

first of all, theyre unfair to me. its always, "leilani this" "leilani that" but never one of my siblings doing anything. and if im caught doing the most minor shit evr, its always a beating + scolding, whilst if ifs my siblings, its fine for them. its so fricking annoying. 

second, theyre neglectful to me. they dont care ab my needs. they dont care about how i cvt myself. they dont care enough to even get me help. i have atypical depression, and they still dont understand. they joke about sh, depression, and dont even believe that depression in children exists. its so frickin obnoxious where to the point im cvtting myself almost evryday :frown:. i havent evn been clean for a week this month. 

third, they obviously frickin h8 me. its so frickin obvious and i h8 em so much. my sister acts like im nuthin most of the time, alongside my brother. my brother avoids me so much its annoying, and he took away the wires to my pc and made me have a mental breakdown. i cvt 7 times that day. my mom is an asshole that apparently has mental issues. she had a bad childhood (abused, neglected, etc.) but it doesnt excuse the fact that she couldve learned from it and helped me and my sister (who both sh still to this day, shes 19) have a good childhood and not cvt ourselves. my dad is a guilt-tripping jackal who can do no wrong, apparently. if you get mad at him for hurting you while you both are playing around, he'll get mad, and suddenly, youre the one in the wrong, not him. even if it hurts so bad your arm is bleeding or something. and he guilt-trips me into eating when i don't want to. i hate it sm. i frickin hate this house. i frickin hate how everybody normalizes neglect and abuse in asia. frick this earth.