I hate calclus tw/suicidal thoughts, pills

I just had a test in AP Calculus, and I was hella confused the whole time. None of it made sense and I didn't have the chance to studied because I didn't get home til 12.

The class makes me feel so dumb and smart at the same time, cus some people in class classes struggle with equations I find easy, yet anything easier and I'm sitting there looking stupid.

I was trying not to overdose with the pills in my bag, would at least save me the headache of the test. Killing myself felt so much easier than doing that test. Don't even wanna hear my score atp.