i hate my fucking life

i spend every day in a bosy i hate, a body ravaged by male hormones into being a disgusting hairy sweaty mess.

i spend every day going to a school full of people who hate me because im not exactly like them, or people ive had issues with before.

i spend my time at home being berated by my mother constantly over every small tiny mistake. and my father isnt around us very much.

and now the last person i thought actually loved me

just dumped me

i spent 2 weeks just waiting for her to come back to me

the day she returned we celebrated

and then the day after she dumps me

and messages my ex girlfriend on discord saying that i was a manipulator.

zero explanation for that either

i wish i was special

but im a creep

im a weirdo

what the hell am i doing here

i dont belong here.