Gonna be honest about some mental shit, but I hate how my brain overthinks. Like I would just like to not feel anything anymore. I hate the whole "forgive and forget thing" because like yeah, I forgave you, but I still remember. I'm still upset about it and angry. Also, I feel like I'm not allowed to be upset at anyone or about anything. Because then they get upset, and then I feel bad and like a shitty person. I can never win. I can never feel like my emotions come first. I feel I always have to de-escalate things and be a people pleaser. Everything's so bottled up inside atp that I wanna scream at the fucking world.
Sorry for this depressing rant, just needed to get it off my chest and maybe some of you can relate. </3
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Will !!!!!! :>
UGHH i feel this so deeply. For YEARS AND YEARS all my friendships with people felt like it had to be this way and it drains the shit outta me..
i’m not the best at giving advice but maybe surround yourself with less irritating people?? I realize most of these feelings i had were all caused by people who loved to push me to my very edge and blame me for it constantly. Maybe start a journal or just find someone to vent all your frustrations at..
you don’t always have to forgive and forget because really if they don’t feel bad for what they did then it’s probably not worth forgiving.. I think that whole thing is kinda just bs.. although to keep my own peace i normally get angry and rant all about it somewhere confidential instead of confronting because people like that aren’t worth my time..(or yours either depending on your situation) Every time i’ve tried to confront people like this it always ends up back in my face and turned on me for “being all crazy” so i’d rather just talk shit to someone else LOLLL
also not sure if this is relevant to you but i’ve had these exact issues and i do have severe bpd…
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