i have no words

my dad plays in my face i swear to god everything he does is ragebait😒cause my brother dislocated his knee yesterday and it's just had me thinking a lot about how if that was me he would be pissed. like i would not hear the end of it about how immature i am and dah dah dah dah dah. but since it's my BROTHER and he's a boy it's okay? or it's "expected" i guess. like for example, back in june i hurt my back and it wasn't even serious (also literally the ONLY TIME i've ever gone to the hospital my entire 19 years of living). i just got a cat scan, meds and literally went to work after, anyways he was mad that he was gonna have to pay the hospital $100, (which he didn't even pay mind you, i did) and saying that i need to remember i'm not a kid anymore and i can't do these things (a headstand btw). but when my brother broke his ankle playing basketball, he didn't have anything to say. when my other brother dislocated his knee, he didn' t have anything to say. like why is it only your daughters you bitch at? cause he did the same thing to my older sister when she broke her elbow. why is it only "acceptable" or "reasonable" when it's the boys? and it sucks but he would not be caring for me the same way he is for my brother. and yea and is kinda pissing me off. idk he does shit like this and then wonders why i moved out and why i lowkey hate him...OKAY RANT OVER. i'm done thinking about it