I have to get over my fear of people if I ever want to do the things I want to do

I have been feeling so isolated lately , I don’t really talk to anybody and my closest friend and I aren’t really hanging out anymore so I don’t really interact with anybody in real life very often other than my friend who lives far away but visits during summer and winter break. I went to the grocery store today and I felt so different from these other people around me . This feeling is so unsettling to me, and I know that social anxiety is something many people experience but I can’t help but feel sad to think about how disconnected I often feel around others 🤔🤔🤔  i want to meet so many interesting people and make so many friends but I don’t because over time I think have convinced myself that I am not a normal person that can interact with others in the way that everyone else can 🤔and I think it all really comes down to the fact that I am deeply uncomfortable with myself and how people perceive me 

I have no good conclusion for any of this ! Am I the same as the woman on the bicycle am I the same as the strangers I pass on the sidewalk am I the same as my mom am I the same as the misquote I saw this morning am I the same as the dirt in my yard🤔and why should I even care to think about this 🤔

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