i hear the fireworks outside right now and it isnt the forth of july yet and its pissing me off this isnt related to the blog its just annoying

i've been thinking about that one blog where i said i felt more mature than people my age.

god is it stupid.

today i was scrolling (as usual) and saw someone complaining about people my age saying we feel more mature than our peers. 

and yeah. i guess. it is stupid. everyone my age says it.

but it also feels invalidating in a way. not being more mature or knowing more isnt the issue. i quite frankly dont care. but feeling disconnected being boiled down to "common early teen stupidity"

i get it. it sounds stupid. im probably just the same as anyone else. but it is how i feel. i dont want to feel like that i guess???

its just annoying to see my feelings being considered edgy. i understand finding it corny but it still upsets me.

i feel so disconnected and different. maybe "different maturity levels" isnt the correct way to word it but i cant find anything better to say. im not good with words.

this is such a nothingburger dude no one cares this dumb shit "hurts my feelings" but what the fuck ever i just wanted to get my thoughts out

(also does anyone know how to turn off blog comments)