I hope people die and me too honestly

People always tell me to go outside and stop using the internet as escapism because it makes me so mad, like the real world would actually care about me. People in my town have received death threats for being alt and this one girl was even chased down by a group of her classmates/fellow teens, and they yelled at her to kill herself and a bunch of other stuff. I don't even know why they did it tbh but I heard about it on Facebook from the girls' family. "Go outside! Go make friends!" And then these are the people that surround me. Not like I'm any better tbh I have let the anger of this world infect me and can't stop obsessing over shit that makes me miserable and stuff that other people have said to me. So I'm just stuck inside, not able to move out as I have to work at a job for years to do that and I don't have the time for that right now. I want romance but this is really who I am.

 Who would even want me lmao, only people who don't know enough about me  so yeah I don't wanna go back to in person school because the people at my school would call me slurs and probably would hate me... I think I'd make like a couple friends tbh but I don't wanna risk accidentally saying that I want to kill ppl at my school because that would get me arrested or smth 

honestly even though I have a lot of friends on here and like 1 friend irl I don't think I will ever be happy. Even if I move to another planet I'll still be sad when I wake up in morning and sad when I go to bed at night as theres nothing to distract me from my mind and my memories. I guess I'll stay alive and try some Zoloft to see if that helps me maybe and buy more weed that way I can just smoke instead of posting shit like this and scaring all my friends with my anger issues