I kinda died for a week

okay so...

For the past week I feel as though if I died quite literally, it is weird I know, but it does feel that way.

The most I remember of these past six or so days is waking up, checking my phone, going to school or going to sleep again and then rotting. I tried to do homework or just log in and play or do something online but most I did was open a game or FR and close it after 2 minutes. If there is anything I did that is worth mentioning is that a girl in my theater class asked for my Instagram, I don't think she is bad person or anything, in fact she is the only one in that class that does not perceives me as a nuisance ( or at least I believe she does not) but even so she is just such a plain individual, we talked a bit in class and we had some awkward online interactions but she is just gray, she is somewhat empathetic and funny but other than that she is pretty much an ignorant (probably due to her being raised in the US) and is also trapped in her little social bubble, there is nothing interesting in the least bit about her, listens to whatever is trendy on Tiktok, has the same opinion on the same overloaded topics as everyone else, has the same hobbies as everyone else and to top it all off and kill it she finds any activity I do that SLIGHTLY deviates from the norm to be "weird" and not weird in the cool little quirky way, I've felt genuine disgust coming from her words when directed towards me.

To make things even better, I'm the stupidest person ever, and because of the fact that my parents were to busy trying to survive in Venezuela's early to mid 2010's economic crisis, i did not get as much affection as i should have as a baby which is why no matter who, as long as they give me a little tiny bit of attention, I will become al theirs. 

So to sum it all up I like spending time with someone who do I not only dislike but who also seems to see me as an actual weirdo.

Also i recorded a cover of stick stickly earlier and i will most likely upload