June 11 2026( Thursday)
A bit of a late entry but here we go. My day started awful even though I got some sleep. The first thing I did was having a appointment with my psychiatrist and of course we talked about my weight. We talked about how little I eat and the consequences that can come from that. He then told me that I’m only 3.5 pounds away from being underweight. He then also said that if I would continue losing even more weight they will send me to a hospital or psychiatric clinic. I’ve already been to a psychiatric clinic last year but this time I would have to stay 24/7. But the worst he told me was that they can and will forbid me to do sports if things get worse. This means I wouldn’t be able to skateboard or take long walks like I always do and skateboarding is literally the reason I’m still in this world. He then also told my parents that they need to force feed me and of course this gave me a panic attack. After that I immediately went skateboarding . The skateboard session went horrible because besides the hot weather I kept thinking about what he told me so my concentration was completely off. I then just cruised around and at least found some cool new spots. After that I went home to take a long nap so my thoughts can finally shut up. I then went out again to take a little walk in the forest and just came home now. So yeah that’s the end of the day I guess. I’m glad it’s over.
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