i miss my step kids

im not sure if it is appropriate to call them my step kids anymore because im not with their dad. but calling them my ex's kids feels so impersonal because they were so much more to me than just that. they were my babies. i miss patting their backs to sleep, rocking my baby boy. making them food. playing with my princess and her having the biggest smile on her face as she tells me she's so happy. that she loves me too. 

how i wish i could hear her say my name again. to ask me for ice cream. to hear her mistakenly call me mommy. to see his small hands reach out for me, to see him smile at me just one more time. 

they are so young i don't think they'll remember me. i can only hope that if they don't remember my face or name, they remember the love i gave them.