I missed living

I am back in university after life took my last 20 years from me. It is good to be back doing things again but the broad scope of first level courses are killing me. Nothing against earth sciences. That stuff just puts me to sleep though. I cannot wait to get into the chemistry part.

Life has been testing me. I have ADHD and focusing on things that do not interest me is harder than hard. I have come down with yet another upper respiratory infection to add to the difficulty. We suffer to get to where we need to get to.

I am recovering from a very messed up time in my life. Everything and everyone I used to know is gone. I am starting from scratch in a new location. Day by day, the specter of cptsd grows just a tiny bit quieter. It haunts me just a little less. 

I miss being delusional.