i missed two assignments and my head hurts

my head hurts so bad every time i touch my forehead. and my wrist is swollen. 

i need to drop out i think. i can't get accustomed to college. i was good at high school and got used to high school, and now i can't seem to get used to how college classes and grades work. i missed two large assignments for one class in the same week. i missed an assignment due last wednesday because up until 5 minutes ago i thought it was due this wednesday and i was about to do it right now. and i missed a quiz because all of the quizzes and exams are entirely online and you don't have to go to class for them for some reason. i love my social life and the way my life is here but i just can't get into the academic part of it. i think i need to kill myself im so so so serious even though i never would i just can't do anything right or be a person right or do college right i just want to go back to high school or be dead. i can't drop out and get a job though because i can't get a good job with just a high school diploma. but i don't want to go to college anymore or even get a job anymore. i want to give up. it's too hard. i wasn't made for any of this. i'm too soft. i'm not strong enough i wasn't supposed to be here. i hate it here.