I start work tomorrow

I'm shadowing to be a music teacher at my program and I kinda wish i was there today. I slept in on purpose cause I know what's to come soon but like 4 different people were calling me because they thought I was gonna be at orientation and i feel bad :((. I'm just gonna enjoy my day I got myself some coffee and I'm about to play roblox (very employed of me ik). I've had very bad writers block for the past I wanna say year and it hurts so bad because now more then ever I have so much to say and the words just wont come to me. I've been revisiting my old songs and I really was in my peak :,). Hopefully for this summer i'll actually go out and get inspired.

Most of the time its just me, my computer and my instruments and its so frustrating to feel like I need to get things out and when I try, nothing. I had my first real "heartbreak" if you can even call it that and I'm feeling so many complex emotions and I have nowhere I can sit them down and just see. I'll figure something out. I may have to listen to new music go to new places maybe talk to some new people.