I think I have twisted my left leg

I’ve always had leg problems, but they weren’t severe enough for anyone to really take it seriously, and now we’re seeing the consequences of that. My leg may or may not be twisted. 

Not fully twisted but moreso that I can only walk half-connfortably by twisting my leg. It hurts if I don’t, like there’s a muscle or nerve that is stretched too much if I stretch my leg out normally. I have knocked knees and I sit down a lot, and I have a lot of symptoms of sciatica along with this this so… yeah. My left leg is kind of fucked. It was cramping, numb, and burning all at the same time from the knee down earlier. I’m going to ask about potentially using a crutch again because I can’t walk right half of the time. this is pmo. I feel like that one scene in Frankenstein (2025) where Victor is chasing after the creature but he doesn’t have his cane so he’s limping a lot. That’s what I look like having to walk around. I think I’ve fully incinerated my left leg by twisting my legs as a form of self-harm (and to validate myself more since no one takes my leg pain seriously) and the fact that I’m always sitting down and the fact that I was probably born with some tomfuckery in my legs anyways. I think one of my legs is shorter than the other too since I can’t comfortably stand up straight, I have to put my weight on one leg. Rambling blog because I feel brain damaged af rn