i think im going crazy

literally my life is pretty good, my parents are chill abt me being queer, more subtle abt their annoying favoritism, got pretty great friends, good grade, (kind of) dating someone but.... idk im still super depressed and suicidal and lit nothing brings me joy anymore, dnt wanna eat, shower, or even get out of bed, let alone my room... theres lit nothing that makes me less .. idk.. soulless other than getting high, and thats uhhhhhh.... not  a GREAT coping mechanism for me ig, but idk whats going on with me, what i should do, and how i can stop like, getting high all the time----