i watched high art and now i'm listening to midwife

hiii it's the title... i wish i was fucking joking when i say my life feels like the worst fucking movie ever. its stuff like this that just makes me wanna give up. we're not allowed to have happy endings because we're always od'ing or killing ourselves and people only miss us when we're gone. fuck dude they don't even care when we're gone unless we put ourselves on display in life. that's the message i got from high art. i saw past the voyeurism, the sexy scenes, and the age gap and i see now. i see now. i see now that there's always someone to tear you down and it can be the people closest to us. this is the song im listening to