I WISH..

I wish I was actually special to someone...I dont feel special to anyone. Sometimes I just think people who say they love me or i 'am' special just feel bad for me and dont care about me at all..I feel like im just a background character to everyone that no one actually cares about and they can toss me away like nothing and not miss me at all..I hate my life so much..I hate myself..I hate people who pretended to care about me or pretended to love me then randomly blocked me with no explanation..I just hate everything.