I WISH I HAD IRL FRIENDS AND FREEDOM BEFORE I DIEEEEED

it seems so FUN everybody is OUT and having FUN in GROUPS and MY organs are FAILING SLOWLY!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUUUUCK????  I WANT TO "HANG OUT" FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!  i want to KNIT AND WALK AROUND AND NIGHT AND LAUGH AND SLEEPOVER AND EAT OUT TOGETHER AND COME OUT AND BE LIKED UNCONDITIONALLY AND HAVE A REAL SUPPORT SYSTEM AND GO OUT WITH FRIENDS AND DO THINGS FUUUUCK WHY IS THE WORLD ENDING BEFORE I GOT TO LIIIIVE!!!!??????????? WHERE IS MY FUN IRL STORIES????? 

I FEEL LIKE I SAVED UP JUST ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY A MULTIPLAYER GAME IVE ALWAYS WANTED BUT RIGHT WHEN I TURN IT ON TO PLAY IT THEY END THE SUPPORT FOR ITT AND ITS SET TO DETONATE IN 15 SECONDS

WHAT THE FUUUCKK WHY AM I ALWAYS BEHIIINDDD