idfk

so done with life rn

  i was known for being the cheerful friend of the friend group kinda giving pinkie pie vibes from mlp, but i genuinly cant keep up with my cheerful mood i always had.. my 'friend' from that friend group has privately confronted me how i got 'boring' and 'dull' and i tried explaining to them that my mental health is quite literaly getting worse every second to the point where i almost black out in the middle of doing something because im just so fckn tired . but not all people from the friend group are like that, my gf is genuinly the best person from the friend group imo, and when the friend group decides to hang out all but without me my gf says shes busy cuz she wants to spend time w/ me. but everyone else is just eugh. and my friend group were planning on going on vacation all tg at the start of the year , still when i had my cheerful charm. but now they say "we cant go with you.. sorry ." i mean i understand but we have been planning it for so long now . i might just kms atp but idfk , my dad wont let me get a therapist becuz im 'strong' and can 'fight' depresion. dad ily but it doesnt work like that. and my brother is moving and hes just like my bsf idk what to do. ppl from my class are spreding rumours bout me , anyways cya ima go do smth, 

-with love, riri     💋