I was like… I don’t know planning on dosing or like taking a bunch of pills n stuff. like ever since in HS (highschool), MS (middle school) no one ever liked me or found me attractive. I never really had friends or anyone like me either.. I was just there with myself… like a fucking stupid ghost but an emo one. my grandpas dead and everything is going to shit! everyone from HS, MS, ppl from TIKTOK, INSTAGRAM AND YOUTUBE ALL EQUALLY HATE ME! I used to be bullied throughout middle school then highschool but nobody cares. Right?? like cause I’m a loser and weird for my interests. I feel like I’m in highschool again but as a 19 y.o. nothing changes. sadly. TikTok and YouTube just bully or harass me just like in highschool getting asked “my friend likes you” “he says he likes you” “he wants to date you” or “your pretty” “you’re ugly” “ew”. like it’s SO PATHETIC and annoying but…
🖤Ig I’m gonna be hated on forever but at least I’ll be beautiful forever.🖤
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pen.name.nekomara
unfortunately so fucking relatable i used to get those "oh are we friends?" or "hey my friend says he likes you" kinda shit all the time back when i was in school too it was genuinely so fake i felt the second hand embarrassment in my soul. js thinking abt it makes me wanna explode
i can also relate to the suicidal thoughts too, i sincerely hope you dont go through with it because as corny as it sounds it does get better tho truth be told itll be a while before it does.
you'll find people that value you, love you, want to be around you, everything. trust me you absolutely will. you didnt deserve to be so extensively bullied the way that you are right now, people are assholes fr but good people exist and i hope you find those people sooner rather than later
sry if it doesnt sound too authentic i tried my hardest, genuinely hoping you make it thru all of this tho ^^
annieapplepies
all i can do is pray life goes softer on you. hope your next experiences show how valuable you will always be