I'll be alone soon

I'm just losing friends and people I care about. There's nothing sacred anymore, there's nothing special that I offer that makes people stick around. It was all just dumb luck. They'll all leave me and soon the same piece of shit I was before. But this time there's not a group to return to when I get home. Just a sack of shit in my mind and my inhibitions to keep me company.

There's no reason to talk here about it but I'm just running out of options and the only people I can somehow think to talk to are strangers on a 2005-styled social media platform. Maybe this is a punishment for prior insolence. I don't know I don't know I don't know

just let me rot