I’ve probably said this before, but I spent a good portion of my childhood mentally sheltered. I had a really hard time with people on account of bullying in elementary school, Covid in middle school, and just general life stuff from that timeframe. I would go on to make friends from 7th-11th grade, but none really stuck. There’s always been this lingering fear that I’m more tolerable than I am likable.
And as I get older, I fear I’ve missed out on key events. Parties, hang outs, dates, activities. And I’m a little scared it may be a bit too late to make that up. I’ve never been in a relationship, I’ve only ever been to one friends house, I can’t think of a time I’ve been invited to anything, sincerely. My family used to say ‘you’d forget she’s in the room’ a lot, and I’m worried they may be right. Part of me is scared that I’m forgettable.
Anyway, just had to get that off my chest- goodnight guys! Luv you all!
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annieapplepies
i think we're all bound to be forgettable no matter what, or maybe you're talking about the kind of forgettable where someone is too socially inept to be remembered for something truly great, or at least that they were a person at all? i share sympathy for you :( not knowing how to bond with others must feel really closeted. sucks. But I believe that there's never a 'too late'. you can still make it up, still be the person that you want to be