im afraid of going to school tomorrow

i havent gone for 4 days, since friday. i went on a 3 day trip with my music course to play at a concert, it was amazing because i got to spend lots of time with the friends i met there... 

i havent gone to school today because i was tired, and also i didnt have any time to do my homework. but now the thought of having to go to school again is making me anxious.

dont get me wrong, im not one of those immature people who hate school because its 'boring', i hate it because of my classmates. they dont bully me or anything, they just dont like me AT ALL and that bothers me, because if i even try talking to them they ignore me and that reminds me of how much they dont like me....

i thought i was good at masking whatever the fuck is wrong with me but apparently im not

who cares, as long as my deskmate lends me her vape im happy. its not one of those gay stupid flavored vapes, it tastes like coal and mint