I’m an Adult now? (vent)

I’ve been 18 for a while and my parents have noticed that other than them I don’t talk to anyone I have no peers. Outside of the internet but they don’t know that. So now my mom has been trying to get me to connect with people in public. But they were so strict when I was younger and shamed all of my interests so I why would I talk to anyone when I don’t exist publicly I have no outside connections. I didn’t even have hobbies from age 11 to 16 I had no interests because I wasn’t allowed to express my excitement to them and I didn’t know anyone else.

 When I tried to connect with peers in middle school with clubs and groups they made me leave and deleted everything because “I was talking to strangers and telling them lies”and locked my phone away for months. And when I showed proof that I knew these people in real life like they literally went to my school, I still got cut off.  And I was quite literally telling my friends about my home life and they were offended, and then Covid happened so I didn’t have any lasting friendships going into high school. So my entire life from 11 to 16 was homeschool, fighting and being sick.

 So apparently when I was younger they went to counseling and gained common sense I guess and stopped treating me like having a personality was a criminal offense and unlocked my restrictions when I was 17. And went from electric fence to taped together popsicle sticks and were shocked(lol)when I still acted like I would get shocked. 

This got really long so sorry about that but I was losing my mind and didn’t feel like burning family bridges so I posted here.