IM BACKKK (everything update)

heyyoooooo im back after a long ass break (i forgot about this account lol) anywho im in college now 1st year ofc im studying film and tv also currently working on my first script which im so proud to say as a professional procrastinator. College has been super fun i have so mnay friends and ive already been on so many trips. now for the bad news im having relationship issues, recently i asked my girlfriend for a break i gave her some BS reason because i know the real reason would hurt her its not that im falling out of love its more that my love has changed she's my bestfriend and i love her but i know im not hers she only see's me as a lover and i dont feel appriciated as friend by her which i value alot. once she said "i dont wanna invite you beacuse i dont wanna be seen as the person who brings their lover everywhere" aren't i more than that? sigh the breaks almost over and wrote most of my feelings down to help when we finally talk. ive also recently gained feelings for a boy in my class im just super conflicted all around i dontwanna lose her,i dont wanna give him up, i just wanna have my cake and eat tbh maybe i will who knows.