i'm perpetually upset

Idk how to blog so I'm just gonna put my thoughts here. I think that's what blogging is. This reminds me a lot of reddit 😥

Everyone has a baseline level of happiness that they go back to no matter what happens in their lives, and I think mine is like really low. I kinda hate being alive sometimes. Other times I love it a lot, but overall, I view the experience of being a human as miserable. It's all misery. It's all suffering. I am all suffering. Idk man. I'm diagnosed with anxiety and OCD, not depression. I don't want to be diagnosed with depression because I think that label would make me like self-fulfilled prophecy myself into being even more miserable. I also think everyone's lives would overall be better off if I wasn't in them. I made a lot of new friends recently and I feel like it's only a matter of time before they all hate me, and some of them are already starting to. I hate being a person so much I wish I was never put here. Sometimes I resent my parents for forcing me into this.